Gee; i lovee youu too!!

I am really fucking pissed right now, for a stupid reason, but you know what, I don't care if it's stupid or not! My boyfriend told me I made his Myspace page look like he's a queer; so he deleted the gay stuff off of it. Okay; no problem, right? Um. Yea. I didn't know that all of the stuff saying that he loves me, or that I love him, is embarrassing/makes him look like a queer. (Therefore, he deleted all of it!) Fucking, just fuck. I try to be a good girlfriend, and I guess it just comes out embarrassing for him. There are plenty of times that he embarrasses me; and I just forget about it, because I love him, and it doesn't really matter to me how embarrassing he acts. (Apparently, I just found out that it does matter to him.?) Just whatever! I don't even want to think about this anymore; it's making me want to cry again. On a better subject; I should be buying my laptop in a few days, maybe even today. (: I'm so excited for it! Now I won't be like the only one without one, and I can talk to my friends all night. Okay, well I just realized that my boyfriend probably didn't mean to piss me off, or by deleting that stuff, he probably didn't mean it in a rude way. I know he isn't like that, but sometimes I think that he is going to find someone better, so I look for little things like that... Because I think he could do so much better than me; I don't think I'm anything special, or pretty, or smart, or anything like that. But he seems to think so, because he tells me that I'm smart and beautiful... I don't know, I just don't think I deserve someone as great as him, and when little things like this happen, it makes me feel like he thinks that too... - xoxo Ashley

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By: Ashley P.

When you are loved,
you feel special,
you feel happy.

When you love someone,
it doesn't matter,
how much they hurt you,
or if they ever do.

When you feel sad,
you think of them,
and wonder,
what they are thinking,
at that exact moment.

Are they thinking of you?

When Someone loves you,
they hold you,
and they never let you go,
it doesn't matter to them,
what other people say.

When someone you love,
hurts you,
they might not even know,
because, if they truly love you,
they would never hurt you intentionally.

And, if they ever do,
hurt you, unintentionally,
it may not be their fault,
for they do not know,
that you have been harmed by them.

If you love someone,
you must forgive,
Because, if they love you,
it would hurt them,
to hurt you.

Idea:
I think that the idea for this poem is pretty self-explanatory, seeing as I just came up with the idea, and just wrote it. (Usually I write my poems the night before I put them on here.)